Alone

I've always liked being alone. I used to work from home and loved just being here in the peace and quiet, to my own devices. I always felt extremely productive and completely in my very own element. I was always so clear minded at home....alone.

My mom could never and still, will never understand this fact. She does not understand how I could possibly be her daughter. For all of you who know her, she is the biggest social butterfly you have ever met. I have never been one who needs to be surrounded in people, in an office atmosphere, talking all the time.

Don't get me wrong, I enjoy going out, when friends come over, etc. but over the years I feel I have become slightly more of a recluse and have never fought it, I find complete comfort in it.

Today is different. I am different. Everything is different. I miss the noise, it feels too quiet, I am too alone with my thoughts. That being said, I still do not want to be surrounded in people, I don't want to go anywhere and don't want anyone to come to my house.....I do have one want and exception though.....I want that beautiful little, sweet spitfire here with me!!!!

P.S. A mothers instinct is incredibly strong. I offered to take my mom and Gary to a doctors appt. today and they were supposed to be here in about 10 minutes. My mom just called and said she doesn't think I should go and she is going to go without me. She knows I am alone for the first time and said she thinks it is best I stay home, as I have a lot of thinking and other stuff to do.

I got goosebumps....she knows me better than I ever thought!