Thursday, June 18, 2009

Where do we go from here....

It's a waiting game. That's what we do....we wait. We don't know what to do. We don't know what to say. We cry, we stop, we wonder, we love each other, we sit in silence, we want to talk to family and friends, we don't want to talk to family and friends, sometimes we want to laugh, sometimes we don't, we want normalcy, sometimes we don't want to see it, we feel guilt for not being by her side, often times we push it aside as we know what's best.

We are doing what feels right for each of us. Strange at it may sound, at this very moment we feel like laying hardwood floor. Something we started the night before the accident and decided was never going to get done in light of our current tragedy. Hardwood floor - never sounded so therapeutic before. We had no idea we could ever find comfort in doing such a thing.

Dave came in as I was typing and said, "Honey, the neighbors all know about Aviana, they are going to think we're crazy." I said, "It's ok, they probably realize there's no right or wrong way to handle such an thing." By the way, our neighbors would never think anything, they are all some of the best people you'll ever meet in your entire lives. We are fortunate to live amongst them.

So....if it's ok, we will continue to keep you in the loop with this blog to the best of our ability!

1 comment:

  1. Wow! What strength it must take to be so honest. thank you for sharing every feeling. it is very powerful. you are the only ones that can know what is best in every moment no matter what that looks like to those observing. no one should judge your behavior. blessings