I have always been a night owl, Hoot Hoot, but in all honesty, I would really appreciate some sleep lately. For the life of me, I cannot catch a break.
I wander the halls. I cry. I clean. I organize. I blog. I watch TV. I cry. I do anything I can to try to...
Distract.
Distract.
Distract.
I feel so lost and lonely. The hole where my heart used to be is widened with each passing night.
Once I finally fall asleep around 4am, I am awakened by Dave getting ready for work. I then, once again, cannot go back to sleep, as I start where I had just left off a few hours prior. Missing my baby.
Below is one of my very favorite songs, and these days, it mirrors my life all too much!
Shut up train I'm trying to sleep
Can't you show me a little sympathy
This is the only time I can get any peace
So shut up train I'm tryin to sleep
Every time the front door shakes
Every time I hear the breaks
And that long whistle cryin through the night
I'm reminded of the way I feel
Just like that cold black steel
Gettin crushed by your wheels tonight
I don't need no more pain so shut up train
I hope you're happy now I am wide awake
Now I gotta deal with every ounce of this heartache
Why your moving on I'm stuck in this place
It's all your fault so shut up train
Every time the front door shakes
Every time I hear the breaks
And that long whistle cryin through the night
I'm reminded of the way I feel
Just like that cold black steal
Gettin crushed by your wheels tonight
I can't take no more pain so shut up train
Shut up train stop rubbin it in
You've made your point
I gave up you win
You win
You're all the noise all the pain every night same ole thing
Why don't you shut up train go on shut up train
I give up I give in raise a flag let you in
Why don't you shut up train go on and shut up train
Oh shut up train
Shut up train
Can't you show me a little sympathy
This is the only time I can get any peace
So shut up train I'm tryin to sleep
Every time the front door shakes
Every time I hear the breaks
And that long whistle cryin through the night
I'm reminded of the way I feel
Just like that cold black steel
Gettin crushed by your wheels tonight
I don't need no more pain so shut up train
I hope you're happy now I am wide awake
Now I gotta deal with every ounce of this heartache
Why your moving on I'm stuck in this place
It's all your fault so shut up train
Every time the front door shakes
Every time I hear the breaks
And that long whistle cryin through the night
I'm reminded of the way I feel
Just like that cold black steal
Gettin crushed by your wheels tonight
I can't take no more pain so shut up train
Shut up train stop rubbin it in
You've made your point
I gave up you win
You win
You're all the noise all the pain every night same ole thing
Why don't you shut up train go on shut up train
I give up I give in raise a flag let you in
Why don't you shut up train go on and shut up train
Oh shut up train
Shut up train