Monday, August 8, 2011

Why Stop Now?

I see people with no arms, but a healthy brain and I am jealous.

I see Gabby Gifford, and I want to cry.

I see special needs kids of all walks, and wish she could.

I see amputees with a prosthetic and I desire.

I see burn victims smile, and live, and I wish.

I see dead people, and I am envious.

I see people walk away from horrible accidents unscathed and I wonder.

I see people moving on, and I want.

I see healthy little Guatemalan kids all over, and I think.

I see a child reach their hand out for something, and I analyze.

I see Rainey move freely all about the house, and I hurt.

I am well aware the grass is always greener, and every situation is challenging, and some have it way worse, but what I just can't stop is the want. The want for what is not ours.

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  1. *Hugs* I wish that I could take away that pain. My heart hurts for you.

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  2. I'm sitting here looking at this comment box wishing I had something comforting, intelligent, earth shattering, or even funny to say but alas I was just left looking at a empty comment box. Know I'm sending you a huge hug and a lot of love for now that's all I've got.

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  3. I cannot imagine. I know what I want and it just.isn't.fair. Why didn't we get what we wanted? Why did we get the shit of the stick THIS time? I can think of a million things to be grateful for and yet I'm horribly sad, angry and depressed for the one thing I DON'T have. Why? Why? WHY???? I have no idea and I won't even pretend to imagine to know why.....but I am glad to have met you...and yet wish like hell we didn't know each other. I wish we the only thing we had in common was that our HEALTHY kids were from Guatemala.

    It kinda sucks sometimes.

    I love you.

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  4. Oh Jen I wish there was a way to make it all better you are so strong but I wish you did not have to be. I pray for your sweet angel and your family

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  5. There are certainly people who may have it worse, but that doesn't change or make it any easier to cope with what you have been through. I just pray that all the hard work you have put in will someday help you get back some of those wants!

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  6. WANT

    want to laugh
    want to smile
    want to walk....to run
    want to reach out and touch the sun

    want to cry
    want to sigh
    want to stumble....to fall
    want to do anything but sit here and die

    want to be
    want you to see
    I AM HERE
    feel me
    see me
    hear me
    do not give in ....keep the WANT ALIVE.

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  7. the WANT is a good thing. it's the energy that focus you and keeps the goals in sight.

    WANT doesn't always play fair though......it has a cousin....the GREEN EYED MONSTER and together they wreak havoc on our psyche......showing us all the things we want then trying to convince us that we are 'bad' for wanting what we don't have......

    don't let you fool you tho' WANT is ok.......it's his little cousin that needs a TIME OUT!

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