Wednesday, December 23, 2009


My heart is breaking into pieces as I type this post. I just said goodbye to my dear cat of 13 years. I got Zoe when I first moved to Chico in 1996. She was 5 weeks old and fit into the palm of my hand. Dave and I met just 3 short months later. She has been with us for the entire duration of our relationship. That just brings me to tears all over again. I just hope and pray that the New Year brings only good for us. I don't know how I am going to handle anymore sadness! Kama and Zoe loved each other very much. They would take cat naps together. And even share dog food from time to time. Zoe would be rebellious when I was trying to take a Christmas picture. She would tell Kama to look away. Then Zoe would let Kama know she was a dopy dog for following along. Zoe would finally follow suit. They loved the sun and shared it every morning. They would bask... And bask.... And bask some more. It always felt like I was intruding on their "love fest." Sometimes Dave joined in too. Kama and Zoe waited patiently for Aviana's arrival. They made sure her room was perfectly put together. Zoe even decided to test the crib out... Zoe did not realize that this new little girl was going to chase her all over the house. Aviana would sit and think, "Everyone else likes me, why doesn't she?" Then she would try again. And again.... And then on different days with a new approach. Then one day Avi had something Zoe wanted! I feel physically sick after rummaging through all of these pictures. I miss those girls desperately and want BOTH of them back!!!!


  1. I'm so sorry for your loss...
    Wishing you a Merry Christmas and may 2010 bring you happiness and joy!

  2. Oh my gosh, Jen, I can say that I actually know how you are feeling right now.

    When Xena passed away last year, we were all devastated. She had found us when Dylan was 4 years old and those two bonded like I had never seen. She was an indoor/outdoor cat but every night she would come upstairs with us to Dylan's room while we said our prayers and then she would wait until he feel asleep before she came downstairs to go outside. I have so many pictures of the two of them sleeping together and as I type this, it brings tears to my eyes. She was such a big part of our family, she loved us just as much as we loved her and she is missed so much.

    There are no words that I can say right now to make the pain go away but I do know that Zoe, along with Kama, along with Aviana have been blessed to be your family. I know that they all love and need you and Dave just as much as you love and need them. You are a family and always will be.

    Please know that we are thinking of you all with so much love in our hearts and praying that next year will be one of miraculous discoveries and joy filled moments and love, always love.

    We love you!!

    Christie, Dave and Dylan

  3. Im so sorry Jen, My 13 year old dog was sick for over a week and we where wondering if we had to put him to sleep and I cried like a baby for days and prayed to everyone I could think of to make him get better. Today he is up and around and eating so I think all the praying worked!! My thoughts are with you. I know how dificult it is. Mindy

  4. I have no words, but my thoughts are with you.
    - Ellen

  5. I don't know what to say but haven't posted anything in awhile because of my lack of words. Or I have commented on a post several times but have read it back to myself and decided it just wasn't quite right so I've hit delete. I am so very sorry. 2010 has got to have nothing but good for you and your family. Enough is enough I say. Big giant hugs my friend.

  6. So sorry for the loss of Zoe. I am not prepared at all for when the day comes for any of my girls (Dharma, Eclair and Zoe.) God Bless you for your strength and spirit. You are a beacon of light in this world and your story and words give people hope. Merry Christmas wishes to you, Dave, Avi, Kama and Zoe - RIP.

  7. OOOH Jen...sweet Jen...I'm so sorry for your loss. Zoe was with you throught the good times and bad, but now her job of taking care of you is done and she has moved on to a different place. I know that she would not have left you if she didn't think you were ready to take on the world without her.

    Thank you for sharing the wonderful pictures. I hope you can look back at them some day and cherish the memories and the good times you had with your very special friend.

    I know that this is a difficult time for all of you, but I hope that you can find some comfort in looking back at the joy and love that Zoe brought to your home and to your lives.

    Loving thoughts and prayers to you, Dave, Avi and Kama!


  8. Oh Jen, I am so truly deeply sorry for you. I have no words other than...this sucks and you and your fam don't deserve this! I guess Zoe will be your Christmas angel...

  9. I've read your blog since you began. I think of you often, often. This is a cruel blow, and I am sending you loving thoughts now. Take care. God bless you and all your family this Christmas. ♥

  10. Jen,

    As I read this post, I can say I completely understand, as I eagerly wait for my dear 15 y/o feline friend to come home, but know in my heart that she probably won't. Our pets are our family, just the same as our human family members. And it hurts us when they hurt or are gone.

    Only time will heal the hole in your heart and your family.

    May the New Year bring hope and blessings to you, Dave, Aviana, and Kama.

    Tina B.

  11. Oh Tina B - god bless you too ♥

  12. Tina~ I am so sorry to you and your family! Isn't it especially difficult just prior to the holiday? Thinking of you!

  13. Thank you to everyone for your support :o)

  14. Jen -

    I'm so sorry. I'm just catching up on the blog after the holiday. It's never easy, but this year has just been a doozy. *hugs*