Thursday, October 31, 2013

Costume Change


We had ordered Aviana's costume earlier this month. It had arrived the day everything changed. I opened the box that day and felt such sadness in knowing I needed to send it back. 



In filling out the return form, I was going to spare both the person reading the form, as well as myself in the, 'reason for return' box. At the last minute, and based on the costume we chose for her this year - I changed my mind and wrote, 

"Our daughter is on Hospice and recently took an unexpected turn. She will no longer be needing her costume, because soon our girl will be flying with wings of her own!"



I felt much better as I sealed the box and sent it off.

19 comments:

  1. You're in my thoughts daily.

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  2. Thinking of you, today on halloween I will always think of Aviana in her fancy dress xx

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  3. I think we can all see her as a beautiful butterfly. I woke up thinking about you this morning because I know how much you love Halloween. I hope you are surrounded by butterflies.
    Love you,
    Dixie

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  4. Oh my gosh, Jen. That is so beautiful. You are so open to inspiration, closer than most of us to the world where Avi now reigns- I'm sure of it! A force or a power or spirit- whatever you want to call it- accompanies you through every step. I can see it. The situation above would have ripped me to shreds- and I'm sure it wasn't easy, but you infused it with something beautiful, something precious, something inspiring. Thank you, for being you, for allowing that beauty to come into the world through you.

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  5. That is really beautiful! Thinking of you guys all the time and so sorry for your loss but happy for Avi's freedom. Her spirit and determination will live on forever. I can't imagine the sorrow and heartbreak you have experienced. All I can offer is that we will all always remember all that we learned from your beautiful girl and to enjoy each and every day. I send all my love and hugs to wrap around you and Dave and your family right now. XOXO, Diana R. in Pleasanton

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  6. I bet Avi's wings are beautiful! Sending love ♥

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  7. Love it. I have no doubt she is soaring high!

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  8. I'm a fellow Guate momma, a fellow dog lover, and a follower of your blog since the first post (even though I never comment). Your daughter is on my heart every day, reminding me not to take the little things for granted and to cherish each moment I have with my kids. Last night I had a dream about Aviana smiling from ear to ear while she ran through the grass barefoot. Thank you for sharing Avi with the world and letting us all watch as she grew her wings.

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  9. This is interesting. I recently read a book that a Neurosurgeon wrote called Proof of Heaven. He had contracted some rare form of meningitis and by all accounts should have died. He didn't and relates his tale of being in Heaven and what he experienced. He mentions traveling in Heaven on the back of a butterfly or with a being with butterfly wings. I am sure Avi is flying high today!

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  10. Oh sweet Jen, I had thought earlier this month about what Avi would be for Halloween, since you have always dressed her so cute - and you too! When I looked at the first picture and Raniey looking into the box, all I could see were the WINGS! I know it is hard but what a blessing and message that she sent to you that she is "fluttering around" and sending you butterfly kisses
    xoxo
    Julie in Texas

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  11. Fly little Avi butterfly fly! We all love you and miss you.

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  12. Jen,

    Avi would have been the most beautiful butterfly. My mom passed away 10 years ago from cancer and we were extremely close and spoke or saw each other everyday. After her funeral we returned home and I had an urge to walk out to our flower garden. Almost immediately a beautiful monarch butterfly flew onto my dress and stayed there for a few moments. I know it was a sign from my mom. Thinking of you tonight.

    Hugs,

    Mel

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  13. I was looking for songs for my girls learn sign language to. I came across a video of Children singing and signing to the song" Fly to Jesus". Every time I watch it, I think of Aviana flying with her new butterfly wings from heaven and playing with her dog, Kama. The video link is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fs10Rr14WxY Thank you so much for sharing Aviana's journey . She is a beautiful child.

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  14. Not a day goes by Avi (as well as your whole family) are not in my thoughts. I love this post and keep coming back to the blog to see if you have more to share. I do envision her flying free in heaven and that brings a pleasant smile to my face. Thinking of you.....Erin

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  15. I'm so sorry to hear about Avi... I've been following you guys since 2009 and it's the one and only blog I've kept up with. Prayers for you all... gives another meaning to these gorgeous butterflies now.

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  16. Aww. That is a beautiful costume. But I am sure she is much happier being a gorgeous angel.
    Love,
    Tracy

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  17. Dearest Jen, I have not been able to find the words to write to you and Dave. There isn't a day that goes by that I do not check Avi's blog. I was hoping you would still write! You have been on my mind constantly and I think of Avi daily! The classroom has been so quiet and it breaks my heart that I don't get to go over and talk to your sweet girl. I think Rylee knows something is different, I often wonder if she is questioning her whereabouts as well. Yesterday, we were blowing bubbles in the back yard & a gorgeous butterfly flew around us! She instantly came to my mind. It was such a peaceful moment!
    Love to you and yours.
    Thinking of you daily, Saundra

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