Friday, February 18, 2011

Hard Knock Life

In my wildest dreams, or should I say nightmares, I could never have even fathomed this life for myself. It takes everything I've got to just get through each day. It is physically, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally taxing.

I feel great sadness today.


  1. Thinking of you. One breath at a time. Hugs. I get it, I do.

  2. I've got nothing. Just an I love you.

  3. Just saw this. Thinking of you. ((HUGS))

  4. (((((((((((sending thoughts of gfa ur way)))))))))

  5. You got the carpet pulled out from underneath you all without any speck of doubt.

    I, myself, had a big ol' Cry Fest 2011 over the loss of my Dad...17 years ago.

    When curves in the road come at us, they never seem to be a CIRCLE where you can end up at least back where you started.

    They are just cuzzin' CURVES that take you away from the path you'd planned, into foreign territory that feels surreal.

    Your curve was more like a 180....not only a curve but a COMPLETE change of direction. Shocking. Unexpected. Painful. Expensive. Isolating.

    BUT. As the Mother to Aviana you have a beautiful responsibility to keep moving forward. When you became a parent, you accepted the responsibility to 'keep moving forward'...kinda like 'for better or for worse', yes?

    Does it suck? yes

    Does it hurt? yes

    Is it unfair? yes

    Is it difficult? beyond yes.

    Have you lost alot of yourselves? yes.

    Have you lost friendships? yes

    Has your marriage suffered? yes (how couldn't it?)

    Will you keep moving forward? Y.E.S.



  6. I am so sorry that you are so sad. I just want you to not be sad anymore. What can I do to help?
    Lots of hugs!

  7. My husband cheated on me on New Years. I am having a really hard time with it. Im still here with him. Should I be? I dont know. Is he still cheating? I dont think so. Does he feel horrible? I sure hope so. Am I an emotional wreck most days? Yep
    But if you can get through all you have been through then I can get through this. One day at a time.
    Your blog helps me, thanks