Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Dear Blogger-

What happened to you?  Where are you hiding?  You were such a great friend and then you had to go and change. I can clearly see what has happened to you.  You thought that you could transform into this new and improved version of yourself. You thought that people would like you better.  It’s a common thing that happens, I have been witness to this occurrence many, many times before.

I have but no choice to be completely honest and up front with you.  I don’t like the new you. You are not friendly anymore and cause me more heartache than I can handle. I know you know what I am going through. Can’t you see that you causing me more problems is just about all I can take.

You used to be a friend that I could come to almost daily. I could tell you my deepest, darkest secrets. I shouldn’t act as though it has been all gloom and doom.  We have also shared in a few laughs together.  You were there for me. You helped me to be the best I could be, given my current situation. 

Did I hurt you?  Are my conversations too deep for you?  Are you trying to cause enough problems, hoping that I will tire of them and leave?

You are slowly, but surely pulling yourself away from me. I have to spend so much time (that I don’t have) finding the old you again. I am in a constant battle between the old you and the new you. Don’t you think I am dealing with this enough with Aviana?

Bottom line: you are making a mockery of me.  I am trying to bare my soul, to purge all of these deep feelings, and what you are doing is downright frustrating! 

Are you trying to test my patience too, is Aviana not enough?  Are you trying to tell me that I don’t have to have perfect lines and spacing?  Are you trying to tell me that I should just be “ok” with it and let it go?  Are you trying to enlighten me in the art of letting the small crap roll right off?

Well, I’ll have you know, I’m putting a product out for others to read and I am sick and tired of you skewing things and making my sometimes intense thoughts appear in poor form.

I have tried to have an intervention with you, but the others closest to you are unreachable. Sadly, they are not available by any means: e-mail, phone, in writing or any other way possible. I suppose they too, don’t really care.

You are not just hurting me, but taking everyone down with you!  I have learned this the hard way, but you can’t help those who don’t want to be helped. I am sorry to have to say this, but if you keep this shit up….I will be forced to take my friendship elsewhere, to share my innermost self with someone else.

Jen 

4 comments:

  1. Jen,

    We love your blog! It's an amazing creation and extension of you. Sorry it's bugging the cr** out of you! Hang in there beautiful mommy!

    Love,
    Michelle, Carlos, Joaquin & baby Natalia

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  2. Oh no! What's going on? I haven't noticed the changes in BLogger yet....I hope it gets it's act together soon for you!!!

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  3. Hilarious! Although I'm sure actually seriously frustrating. You have such a way with words! You need to write a book!!......in your free time :S
    xo
    Sophie

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  4. Jen, Dave, Brenda, Gary,
    I just wanted to tell you that there are many of us here at Brenda's old workplace thinking of you and your family every week. Your blog is our way to keep in touch. Please give Brenda our love and you as well and we send all of you our very best wishes and prayers for Easter.
    Noelle S. and Roger P.

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